These posts are all focused on my experiences with BPD over the last few years and the things that I have found helpful.
BPD stands for Borderline Personality Disorder and is also known as EUPD which stands for Emotionally Unstable personality disorder, I don’t really like either of those labels but was diagnosed with it as BPD so it stuck.
I tick the 9 boxes in the BPD criteria which are – *Intense mood swings *Distorted and unstable self-image or sense of self *Fear of abandonment *Unstable or changing relationships *Impulsive or self-damaging behaviours *Suicidal behaviour or self-injury *Chronic feeling of emptiness * Problems with anger *Short lasting dissociation or stress related paranoia
DBT along with changing my lifestyle and the way that I think about things has really helped to reduce a lot of these symptoms. The additional knowledge I have now about being autistic has also allowed me to manage myself and my emotions in more effective ways.
Some things I learnt about myself while being single in lockdown 2020/2021.
This post is a bit of a ramble but something I really wanted to document, for myself at least. This last…
Some things I go through, as someone with BPD, when I think you’r leaving.
At the time of writing this I’m going through a very challenging patch with Christmas around the corner and so many…
How I’m preparing for Christmas on my own this year
Christmas day is about being with loved ones but this year I will be spending it alone and so I have…
I’m still in pain from loosing my FP in primary school…I’m 31 now!
I think that relationships are one of the hardest things for me, well the brake down of relationships really as they…
I wanted change but I didn’t want to do the work – Starting DBT
Things will not change unless you change them, I think this is something I learnt the hard way, along with many…
My struggles with the season. (Rambles of the mind)
(This is no sob story, just processing whats going on in my head and sharing incase it helps anyone else.) Looking…
I’m suicidal but I dont want to die.
Someone made a good point yesterday that If I’m still reaching out then I still have some fight left and some…
5 of my most intence triggers – Borderline Personality Disorder
*I found this posts in my drafts from last year or even the year before and thought it was worth posting…
This phrase really helps me get through when I have suicidal thoughts…..
Recently I have been dealing with a lot of suicidal thoughts and although when they come up I use a whole…
BPD diagnostic criteria and me
I thought I’d take a minute to share the diagnostic criteria for BPD and how I relate to it. I think…
A variety of vulnerabilities – Low Mood
Hi guys, I’m struggling a bit today and thought I would share some thoughts with you on how I’m dealing with…
A bit of my experiance at Disney Land Paris with a disability pass.
Hi guys, hope your well. I got back from Disney a week ago and it feels like a blur already so…
Oh wow so life got crazy! – Quick update
Hey guys, sorry have been off grid for a while, If you follow the Facebook or Instagram page you will already…
The Wall of Crisis – Please help me brake it down.
I was taking to a friend the other day, someone who doesn’t know much about BPD and he said to me,…
My experiance at last weeks Mindful Living Show – BPD and Anxiety
(DBT skills in bold*) Last week things where really challenging and I found it really hard to leave the house for…
6 weeks depressed – My thoughts as the support slips away
*?Mix of emotional and wise mind?* I have been low for a while now, around 6 weeks, I’m not really counting…
How I got through Friday – *Thoughts of suicide*
As some of you may be aware the last few weeks have been very challenging for me and I have found…
I really wanted to get back to work – Accepting something I dont like.
If you read my blog that was published on Thursday you will know that things havnt really going to plan on…
When my safe space becomes my prison
Those who have been following for a while now may know that my safe space is my bath! Any bath will…
My experience in crisis – shutting down and shutting up. (now understood as selective mutism)
*Post briefly mentions suicidal thoughts and self harm thoughts* I started to wrote this post the other day while I was…
Who writes this blog?…and why?
Hi I’m Caz, I thought that seeing as my Facebook following is growing and that slowly slowly more people are finding…
Keep challenging yourself – My most recent challenge!
Those of you who have been following me since the summer will know that I seem to be getting more afraid…
Skills breakdown- some notes from last night.
I’m sat here numb and really disconnected to the people around me and even with myself, it’s taking a lot of…
My self care day – Having a back up plan
Sometimes it necessary to take the day for yourself! So many people I speak to seem to be under the impression…
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